Well, today at 3:33pm my cat, Blitz died. Decided to post here, because its my new community and its a good place to be self indulgent. I just feel the need to .. express..something.. because he was much more than a cat and much more than a pet to me, as so often is true.
Good bye, Blitz -- opener of doors, shaker of hands, converter of cat haters. Enemy of the laser light and the occasional bird on the balcony. I taught you tricks people say cats don't learn, but in the end you taught me much more than I ever taught you.
You taught me about real love, the love where you give more than you get sometimes, where its not just about how you feel but what you do.
You taught me sometimes a warm patch of sunlight is sometimes all you can or should expect from a day, and that you have to pay attention because that patch will move.
You taught me how to enjoy hours of being together but never having to say a word.
And Blitz, despite being a cat you knew how to make me feel special -- showing me that you would bite anyone (some people just playfully or softly), but never me. Showing me that no one had your trust like I did in so many ways.
I will never forget realizing you were smart enough to play hide and seek, will never forget your determination to jump ever higher when we played catch with your plastic hooks. I will never forget my surprise when I found you had learned not just to open doors but to unlock the front door.
When you were just 1 year old and the doctor told me you had an unknown autoimmune disease and were going to die that day most likely I had never cried so much in one day, until today. But that autoimmune disease couldn't get you. You fought and fought..and despite daily steroid pills for years, you lived and thrived. That illness would rear its ugly head. For years you were hospitalized at least once a year.. but you also survived and we had our many adventures together.
I hope you happy, my friend, my buddy, my familiar. I did my best. You were just 8 years old and 9 months.. far too short a time to share with me and far shorter than many cats. But we always knew your time would be shorter I guess, But we had travels, and gourmet meals, and chased crows, and taught dogs lessons, didn't we?
You were the best and I will miss you every day. I cant even convince myself to go to bed tonight because I wont get to pick you up and bring you will me and watch you curl up at my feet -- never invasive, but always there.
I could not have asked for a better companion and Ive always wondered at how lucky I was that life brought you to me. You shallow breaths today were torture for me to see today, Blitz, I'm sorry the end , when it came, came with such suddenness. But even these last two weeks as you faded out I hope you found something to treasure, as much as I did. I love you Blitz, and I will never be ashamed to say that.
I hope you had the time of your life.